Resolution 2011

Well, this seems to be a habit that might protrude itself annually.
As to remind myself not to repeat any unwanted happenings n bad habits.
So, there it goes :

My New Year Resolution 2011!!! ~

Do :
1. Understand parents feeling more, what they do is always for my own good.
2. Come home more often to accompany them.
3. Study well
4. Appreciate people who is worth for me to appreciate them.
5. Give up those unscrupulous kind.. stay away from them.
6. Stay healthy n positive!
7. Keep faith.
8. Respectfulness & Loyalty
9. Strong & Tough
10. More forgiven
11. Improve my EQ *higher priority*
12. Know who to be with.


Don't :
1. Drink too much coffee & any kind of caffeine beverage.
2. Go out alone
3. Stay up late
4. Scared of dark
5. Trust people easily.
6. Judge a book by its cover.
7. Pay anymore concern to the person who doesn't seem to appreciate.
8. Trying to help but end up being blamed by the person instead.. What the hell!
9. Be a stupid.
10. Being told as a freak due to some deep thought.
11. Get bullied by people's words.
12. Bother people who thinks appearance is everything. That is very RETARDED!


Wish I can work harder to achieve all those.
To my heart : Be more tough! Stop thinking silly stuff.

Happy New Year!

p/s : Especially delicated to Amy, Joo, Zhe, and my xiaozi men. =)

真相

真相？
我比你更想知道。。。
别以为看见的是这样就真的是这样。
告诉你，
我已经被弄糊涂了。。。
还是那句，
我只相信自己的直觉，
谁要说什么随你们吧。。。
我不会有任何意见，
说完了就请走，
别再来打扰我的生活。
我真的不需要这样的朋友。
真的是朋友吗？
认识了太多太多假惺惺的人，
已经麻木了。

It's gonna end

Speaking of holidays..
Yea... true.
I enjoy myself very much.
Without doing anything useful,
I still can feel the joy of it.
Hanging around with frenz.
Family, relatives...
Longing to see them,
Miss them when they are gone.
What a life!
Filled with emotion.
That's human i guess.
My pandora box is much more complicated than I've doubted.
Never had I thought I can get through these real fast.
Haha... thanks wei. =)
Feeling sad at the same time...
After checking PBL grouping of sem4.
Curious that somehow de class has reduced again.
Can't recall who is not in...
Finally a knife just stabbed me.
Sigh!
I dun wanna lose anybody...
Do hope we can stay together n get the certificate on the same day..
No matter what..
This is just my little wish.
My little faith is telling me kept holding what is true n justice.
I won't give up.
Won't betray myself to fall into the valley of sin again.. Never.

Sem 3 has come to an end.
A real ENDing...
No more books for me to kill off my time in holidays..
No more music, dance n opera...
Kind of down...
But I'll keep going.
Keep holding my passion in what i really wanna do. =)

p/s : I miss u, xiaozi men... =D

Tomorrow is always exciting!

There it goes!
Congratulation to ah boon n huanqian for passing ur exam!
Hooray everyone...
And so far my s'pore trip has come to an end.
Again, at Johor...
I have no idea what my life will ever leads to.
Hope that boredom doesn't manify itself.
As I hate to stay at home alone, reading novel n doing nothing else.
Hiking? Where to go?
I love hiking, jungle trekking but there is oways no companion to go.
Some friends of mine like to shopping.
Some are super duper hyperactive but I'm not the type.
I guess I'm moderate.. Not too sporty nor homebody.
Arh!
What to do then...
Ehm ehm ehm...
Okay, so far I will just helping dad n mom do their stuff in dis week.
Interesting plan HERE I COME! =D

以下是我死党之一所写的肺腑之言，看了我不禁有感同深受的滋味。。。这篇名为事实的部落写的很写实。 =)


事实~


有时不知道真相比知道完全的真相好，是逃避，也是保护自己的办法。当我回想几个月前发生的事时，没想到，我居然能够如此的平静，能够说的好像在说别人的故事一样。学习了，成长了。周围的人，谁才是那一个可以信任的，我不知道。因为那一个你信任的人，随时，都可以是让你落入万丈深渊的人。伤害的，不仅仅是我而已，而是更多更多似乎不相干的人士。

不要埋怨，不要责备。谁都没有错，而是成长的时间到了。就如我常说的，没有乌云密布，没有倾盆大雨，你岂知道晴朗的美好，岂知道彩虹的美丽？乌云已经散开了，彩虹已经呈现了。阳光虽然耀眼炙热，但我却享受其中。

有些时候，不管你如何解释都于事无补。唯独时间，能够证明一切，唯独时间，能够还你一个清白。历史，不会再重演。因为，我拒绝再让它发生。当我看见一切就快失控的时候，我就会让一切来到终点。在你们都不知道的时候。到时不要问我为什么。为了我想要保护的人，我能够做出一切你们想象不到的事，即使我已伤心欲绝。

曾经和小子们说，长大了，找不到像你们一样的朋友了。周围的人，会背叛你，会重伤你，会耍心机，会利用你。但是，我相信仍然有那么几个，是我真正的朋友。他们是谁，只有我知道，天父，必定也了解。今晚，忽然想起了这一切，虽然感慨，却更感恩。因为我知道当我能够很平静地说出我的故事时，代表我已经康复了。

如果我不能捍卫我们的友情，那么我宁愿选择在我们的感情更深厚之前，放弃。不因为什么，只因为我害怕伤害你。=)


谢谢缓倩小子的文章。 =P
遇到了种种问题，知道该来的总是会来，怨不得人。
从小家里就教育我别太执著去和别人争执，如果别人真的误解了你，
解释再多也徒然。
就这样，反而变成了被别人欺压的借口，
有些人总是有办法让别人相信自己所说的话，
天生的好口才，你怎么说也说不赢。
说服力在这社会真的不容忽视，
就在这一生中所见识到的东西看来，
有些人连死的都能说成是活的，
让群众都信服。。。
我想这样的人真的值得鼓掌。。。
她告诉我，
如果要别人相信你的谎言，
你自己就得相信它是真的。
说真的。。我做不到。。。
睁眼说瞎话，良心真的过的去吗？
可能有些真的觉得没什么吧。
小子们，
说真的，我已经找不到像你们这群知心朋友了，
这让我更加懂得珍惜你们。
你说的对，
谁都没错，只是长大的时间到了。
无论是谁对谁错都已不重要了，
我任然相信做了错事的人是会有自食其果的一天。
就算一辈子都没法让自己懂，
也是自己没福报去看到自己的错来改过罢了。
祝福你们会看到那一天。。
看到自己的错而有机会改过。
我看见了我的。。。
你们呢？
所以请别在不知情的情况下把别人的努力都当作废墟。
时间真的能证明一切，
大家都不小了，
不需在幼稚下去了。
好好珍惜被赐于的头脑，
让自己有冷静的判断力，
不是盲目地信于路人甲的吹嘘说辞，
相信自己的直觉，
作为能好好保护自己的屏章。
人生只有那么一次，
你，好好过了吗？
无常。。无常。。。无常啊。。。

绝望~

怎么我的头脑又不听话？
我想要快点专心读完，
可是怎么那么没办法啊？
救命！
真的没时间了。。。
你是不是想说再见啊？
不是就别在头痛了。。。
帮帮我。。
就快点健健康康~
Focus focus!
别在想那些。。。
加油，
彦子，
你不能让妈咪担心你。。。
记得记得。。。

"Good" Luck?!

This would be a sleepless nite for me.
This time it isn't about studies..
Partly yes,
But... I can't explain the feeling now.
I got so freak out.
It was the first time in my life I've experienced this.
In my own house...
It's too scary...
I still can feel my heartbeats..
It nearly pumps out from my mouth.
It happened when I was studying in my own room with the door open,
Then I saw a shadow walked by the corridor and entered my housemates' room.
By that time I really thought it is amy.
Then I shouted "Amy!"
But Amy's voice came from the dining room.
She replied "What?!"
A silence took place...
Amy still shouted back, "What is happening yen?"
I didn't reply her.
I was too scared...
Coz I knew it, I knew what I saw...
And it's very clear and I'm 99.99% sure that I'm not hallucinating.
T_T


I knew the shadow I saw is somebody else.
Can't help to stay any longer in the room.
I went out and join their group study.
It was freaking!
And creepy...
I have been wondering why most of my friends always longing to see and feel so excited to see those kind of stuff.
This happen to be a weird feeling to me.
Can't put it properly into words.
Just your body will react spontaneously...
Goosebumps came out and ur heart beats like as if it never beats before.
I wish I can tell him.
But now is very important period for him too.
I guess after exam only I'll be honest to him.
Sorry, just dunwan u to be scared of it and affect ur performance.

Sigh!
I stop myself from recalling back the moment I saw it.
But it's too hard...
I will stay alert the whole nite.
>.<
Okay, continue my revision.
Stitch, accompany me pls...
Too spooky.... T_T




From,
petrified yenzi. >.<